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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 06:08 PM Post #1 |
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Bones took a swig from his canteen and shivered, his sight fully returned and the desert growing cold in the night. He was exhausted, not from effort, but from what transpired. The world was out to get them, that was one thing he knew for sure. They got his gear back and a lot more going through the upper floor of the motel, though Bones and Mathew didn't participate, seeking to get out of that building as fast a possible, fully intending on high tailing it soon as they saw the outside. However, the priest decided to go with them and keep them company and neither of them, no matter how desperate, weren't about to kill a man of God. "I don't wanna run anymore." Mathew told him. "Not this again, Mat." Bones hissed. "Let me through. I need to do something." Bones mentally pushed him back. "And let you get us killed, hell no." "You are the reason we almost got killed in the first place! Because you were mad!" "Because you-" Mathew shoved the other personality out of the way and got up from his seat, walking over to Allen. "Do you listen to confession Father?" |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 17 2018, 06:18 PM Post #2 |
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Allen knew this was coming. Matthew/Bones was clearly a troubled soul, and it was not his own fault. Looking compassionately at the young man, the Sulphur Priest observed that they were alone. Good; best to make use of that privacy as long as it lasted. So he replied in the affirmative, "Yes, I do. Confession clears the heart and soul, and is an outlet for guilt and a call for absolution. My child, what do you seek forgiveness for?" His voice was clear and kind, and genuine too. Allen wanted to help Matthew, and felt himself empowered to. He felt compassion for Bones as well, even though he was the same person as Matthew. |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 06:26 PM Post #3 |
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"Thank you father." He sat down next to him. "I have sinned greatly this past few years. I abandoned my family, put faith in a false lover, and sought drugs and alcohol to drown my sorrows." Mathew began to unconsciously rock back and forth, hands together in prayer. "I live in fear of a false crime, of murder of one I considered a lover. I know she ran, she had to have. They strung me up, They didn't listen." He began to cry. |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 17 2018, 06:50 PM Post #4 |
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Allen nods, and says a few words in Latin before crossing himself. He then says, "Your penance in these foul times is to live, to make up for what you have done, to face the world that has beset you with others by your side. To flee will not bring absolution, but sometimes danger cannot be fought, only withdrew from so that one can work another day." A frown and a pause. "If you still wish to go east, you have my blessing. If you wish to stay, you also have my blessing. I wil pray for you to find the peace you seek and for God to bless the journey you will make in this fallen world. But absolution depends on making up what you've done, or at the very least, a sincere effort to avoid harming those who did not deserve it." "I say this; live." Allen then halted. |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 07:16 PM Post #5 |
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"Live..." "A bunch of fucking bullshit!" Bones shouted. "Mat you and your constant need to get some kind of meaning out of life." Bones shot up. "Just deal with the fact you got back stabbed okay! I am getting sick of this, we won't survive if you do this! It's all bullshit! Faith didn't keep us alive, I did! That stupid religion and that stupid book was the reason your father died, that Mary ran. You want to keep following it! The only thing that matters is us!" |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 17 2018, 07:51 PM Post #6 |
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Allen looks closely at Bones and says: "What matters is you and your brother? Oh, you two do matter; I am not disputing that. But tell me; have you two ever thought of finding 'Mary' yourself? Have you two ever thought of confronting her and getting closure for her betrayal? If so, go pursue her! Do not flee from your problems, find the heart of them and solve them! If she ran away, bring her back and ask her honestly: 'Why did you betray us?' Then, stop her from hurting more people!" |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 09:39 PM Post #7 |
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Bones stiffened. "I just wanna go home. My life was simple." Mathew murmured. "I miss her. I loved her." "Well she's dead!" Bones snapped. "We don't know-" "We know! You are just too thick headed to remember!" |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 17 2018, 10:35 PM Post #8 |
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Allen found only one sentence to say, but it was meaningful. "Do you know something Matthew doesn't, Bones?" If 'Mary' was dead and Bones knew, what did it point to? Did it mean that one personality kept secrets from the other, which was repressing his memories? If so, what did this mean? The wind was blowing into the hotel; Flame and the others were still looting the place, probably with Eleanora making preparations to increase her reputation as a Bucket Town heroine. Allen still had plenty of time, time to find another sentence. "Is Mary truly alive, or is she truly dead?" Another sentence. "What evidence do you have for either?" Yet another sentence. "What have you kept secret, Bones?" |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 10:50 PM Post #9 |
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Bones growled. “If you must know, little Mat has anger issues. He has killed men with his bare hands. The main reason why we know Blue is because we breezed into town with busted fingers and he was the only thing close to a doctor. Only thing that can calm him down is jet.” He turned away. “He doesnt need to know or I’d have more of a mess than I do now.” He grabbed his fallened canteen from the dirty ground and drained the last of it. “If God supposed to be this great and powerful being, he shouldve never let this happen. Let his heart get broken like that and let something like that thing back there-“ He jammed a thumb to the hotel. “Exist.” Edited by Everqueen944, Feb 17 2018, 11:07 PM.
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| Blue Collins | Feb 17 2018, 11:18 PM Post #10 |
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And with that, everything was back to a mystery, unless one accepts the theory that Matthew had killed Mary in a fit of anger and repressed the memory. But Allen instinctively knew it was wrong, that it was too obvious. He paced the mildewed carpets of the hotel floor, sending rats and insects scattering all across the area. He would shoot glances back at Matthew/Bones from time to time, trying to clear his head. As he passed by old chairs chewed up by rats and smelling of bedbugs, the Sulphur Priest would make a decision, "Matthew/Bones, I think you are innocent. And as you are innocent, what needs to be done is for you to prove it." He continued, "And by that, I don't mean that you should prove it to your town; they have already made up their minds. What I mean to say is that you should find proof for yourself, so that you will always know that you are in the right and that no one can change that. So I say this once again: look for Mary. Or if you can't, start a new life in Bucket Town. As for your other questions, prepare for a lecture." "People expect much of God just because he is powerful. But evil is allowed to exist because deep inside, people want an enemy to fight, to set themselves apart from 'the other' to make themselves and their own groups closer together. Is this right? No. But people still want it." Allen purses his lips. "Evil comes from sentient beings; the Devil? He himself is a thinking being. Humans and Ghouls all want war, and that's why War Never Changes...unless we learn from the past and change ourselves." Another pause. "And do not worry, Matthew will not be told about what you said, Bones. But I will say this; you are not a bad person. You are proof that goodness exists, besieged as it may be by people's own desires. So yet again, I say," his staff's end tapped the ground as he began walking around again, then stopped, "Again I say that you should either find Mary or cut her off from your mind so that you can start a new life." Edited by Blue Collins, Feb 17 2018, 11:21 PM.
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 17 2018, 11:39 PM Post #11 |
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Bones still had his back to him, fiddling with the canteen strap. “It sounds...so easy. So methodical and....percise. What happens when you’re lost though? You’re lost and dont know which way to go? Never had anything permanent for a long long time. Its just easier to roam around like a piece of dead tree than set roots. How do you...how do you do that? Show your face? Be someone? Not be a monster?” The crumbling leather snapped between his fingers as he continued to play with it. “Not to be scared of your own death...” |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 18 2018, 12:00 AM Post #12 |
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Allen managed to catch the canteen as it fell, showing dexterity that was rare for him. He would then say kindly, "There are many ways, Bones. The easiest way is to believe in something other than yourself, which is usually God. Another way is to believe in yourself. Some even find ways of doing both using various formulations. And of course, people around you help. Multiple people around you help. Friends, family, friends who count as family, they can all help. And if one of them betrays you or dies, absorb another into your circle. But always make sure you have a strong centre and sense of self; that helps best." A look at Bones. "As for not fearing death? There are various ways to do that. One method is, again, to believe in another power. Another is to believe that being erased from existence isn't that bad because it also means the end of all suffering. Yet another is to live for the day, to value every moment of happiness you have so that when you die, you'll have accumulated many instances of beauty and value. And as always, friends help. Friends help to ensure that you do not fear death." |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 18 2018, 11:42 AM Post #13 |
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"Friends huh? Mathew is the friend making type. I'm the one that gets shit done when it goes south." He took the canteen back and played with the leather some more. "I don't know how, too worried about getting shot in the back. Didn't think you can make'em." He was silent for a long while. "Do you think there is an eden? That this Vault Tech made a way to get paradise back?" |
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| Blue Collins | Feb 18 2018, 01:54 PM Post #14 |
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Allen would say, "As usual, the truth is more complicated. There was a company named Vault-Tec that made a 'Garden of Eden Creation Kit', but said kit merely contained fertilizers, seeds, and supposedly a cold fusion reactor, but that last part is easier to doubt. It also contained a small library of holotapes that gave information about technology, about medicine, about science. So, the answer to your question is...it depends on the people who got their hands on Vault-Tec's technology. If good people get the kit, then there is a paradise. If bad people do not get said kit, well, there isn't." A pause. "If Mary went to seek out said kit, and she's the sort of person who would betray you, then it is obvious that she's the wrong person to get it." Another pause. "As for friends...well Flame risked his life for you twice now, right? That shows you can believe in him." |
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| Everqueen944 | Feb 18 2018, 05:05 PM Post #15 |
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“Yeah...wasnt the greatest first impression he gave but...” He shut his eyes. “Is it a foolish goal to have in this day and age, father?” Mathew asked. “To be happy, maybe make others happy too?” He scratched the back of his neck. “I’d like singing, I really did. I wanna keep doing it. Is it wrong to do it? A cowardly thing to do? Blue sort of scared us, his talk of freeing slaves, I get its right, but it was so...radical. I guess it was another reason why we ran.” He slumped his shoulders. “And Bobo must be worried sick.” |
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