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i could stay right here forever in your arms; ;; Katrina Sails
Topic Started: May 14 2007, 06:52 AM (257 Views)
Gareth Brannan
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Gareth was on the roof, sitting on the ledge that was supposed to be to keep people on the roof, but that never stopped him before. It was cold, but he was warm, having cast a heating charm around himself. He was particularly lost in thought, wondering what to do about the future, especially for him and Kat. He wondered if he was ready to settle down and get married. He wondered if she was ready...there were so many unknowns in his life...he hated it.
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Katrina Sails
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A few days had past since Katrina had spoken with Julianne, she had been keeping busy first of all spending time with Julie trying to figure things out, but also it was her way to avoid what she had been avoiding since she started feeling ill.

She was 23, pregnant, and in a relationship with someone who... no she knew she cared about Gareth, and she was sure that in some way she was falling for him, but as how he felt about her. That was what was mkaing thigs so much more difficult. So many thoughts had been running through her mind, she had considered just not telling him, she could hide it, of course that would only work for few months. There was another option, but then again there was no other option Kat could never do that.

She had needed a walk, she needed to to get up the courage to finally talk to Gareth. With the astronomy tower closed down for the night she made her way up to the roof top. IN her head she was going over different senerio's that she could use to tell Gareth which was probably the reason she did not notice someone else outside. It was not until she looked up at the moon, resting her hand against tummy thinking of her baby that it registered, It also only took her a few moments to recognize who it was. She was frozen, and wanted to leave, she wasn;t ready to face him. As quietly as she could she began to sneak away out the door, this was so juvenile.
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Gareth didn't hear the door open, but he didn't need to to know that someone was behind him..someone very familiar. He smiled, thinking that it must be Katrina, his girl now...for what? Six months? No...it was four. It seemed like a shorter amount of time even for that long. Gareth was confused though, when the person behind him started back for the castle. "I know you are there," he stated simply. He could feel their emotional presence, like they had shouted in his ear that they were there. Come to think of it, he didn't know if he'd ever told Kat that he was an empath. Well, now was as good a time as any. "Are you going back inside?"
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Katrina Sails
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How did he know? He wondered, she was sure she hadn't made any noise and she was cursing herself for being caught. Then again maybe this was what she needed. Kat was sure if she didn't tell him soon she would never have the courage to do it.

"Well that was the plan until someone somehow has very impressive hearing, I know I didn't mak a sound." she knew what she had to do. But she was scared, even if she didn;t show it. This was not how it was supposed to happen. She was supposed to be married and when she told her husband they would be happy and celebrate. But here she was scared. Not only of doing this alone, but she was afraid to lose Gareth, she wasn;t ready for that either.

She went over to where he was sitting, looking out over the water.
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Ah. Apparantly, he hadn't ever told her that he was an empath. "Actually," he replied, "I felt you there." It was kind of a relief, now that she knew. It was like having one more freedom around her that made him more himself. He frowned, though. She was afraid, and he could feel it. It bothered him. Was she afraid of him? Had he done something he didn't remember? "Are you okay?" he said, getting down from his ledge and pulling her into a hug. Her fear intensified inside of him as he touched her, which, he knew it would. When he was touched, or he touched someone, it was a lot harder to block out their feelings.
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Katrina Sails
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He felt her there.. an empath? She thought right away, that was the only explanation. There was definatly no way to get out of this now. She could only guess he could feel how afraid she was and when he touched her it only made her feel more afraid over what she had to do. Afraid that this could be the last she was in his arms again. She felt a wave of emotions over come her and she tried her best to try and hold back her tears but they found their way down her cheeks.

She looked up at him, unsure of what was going to happen, "I'm.........I'm ....... we need to talk. There's something I need to tell you, and I don;t know how or what you're going to say but" she said at once, not taking a breath, she couln't even finish what she was saying.
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"Hey," he said softly, kissing her forehead. "It's all right...go on and tell me." He did so hope it wasn't bad news. He hoped no one had died. He hoped...was she going to leave him? Her wave of emotions washed over him, and it left him feeling rather...unsettled, to say the least. "Just take a deep breath, and calm down."
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It was times like these Kat wished she could just see into the future and know what was going to happen, it would saved her the pain of all of this. All the worry, all of what was making her be all emotional, she did have a rare break down but really didn;t everyone? But this, she still had months to go of dealing with this, but she needed to get this out. She needed to know if she was going to be alone in all of this.

She had been quiet for a whle, trying to find her words, she had so much to say, so much to let him know but avoiding his eyes, none of her speech came out, just simply, "Gareth,,,, I'm pregnant."
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Gareth was taken aback, to say the least. He wasn't expecting those words to come out of her mouth. Pregnant. With his baby, or so he hoped. Hell. This isn't how he wanted it at all. They had been careless, stupid. Now, he was going to have to be stuck...tied down, and he didn't know if he was ready for that. Well, ready or not, it was going to hit him smack in the face. "Okay." he said, not terribly excited, but not angry, or upset, either. Now that he knew...he could decipher the two, distinct emotional presences that existed inside of Kat. Wow. His baby. "What are we going to do?"
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As much as Kat wished she could deny it, no matter how much she thought of how careless they had been, her feelings wern't all disappointed. She knew she wanted to have kids, maybe not this way exactally but she did want them at some point. Though at this moment, she wasn't sure how she felt. The look she observed from Gareth was more than enough that she didn't need to be an empath to know what he was thinking.

Inside she fought back her tears because she couldn't do this to him. At least that was how she was feeling, she would never tell him that though she wasn;t planning on this, she was still in a way happy to be pregnant. She would never tell him that she might be in love with him. She would never tell him a lot because..

"You don't have to do anything." she said meeting his eyes for the first time, as painful as it was, "I don't want you with me because you feel it's your duty. I know we messed up but I'm dealing with that. Besids with these inspections coming up I might not be here much longer, so it might just be better to get over with this now." fighting her emotions was so much harder than she had expectd and she couldn't look at him any longer. She pulled away from him because she knew if she didn't he would only feel obligated to her and she didn;t want that, she wanted him to want to be with her, not because she was with his child.
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Okay. Deep breath. Pause. Rational thought. Full sentences. Ready? Go.

Gareth was unsure of what he wanted to do, in most cases. He was unsure about his life, he was unsure about his job, especially with the new demands the Headmaster wanted to throw on him. He was unsure about his potions career. He was unsure about his life. But he was damn sure of one thing, and that was the fact that he wanted to be with Kat, with or without the baby. And he knew, that right now, she was being self-sacrificing, and letting him go. He didn't want that at all. He didn't want her to go off and be a noble like the Gryffindor she was.

"Katrina," he breathed, and then paused, as she pulled away. "Kat...don't do this. Don't try to release me from responsibility." His sentences were awkward, and broken, but he was determined to say what he had to say. "Baby...I want to be with you. Sure, this isn't the time I expected, nor is it the place or way, or anything like that. But, life sometimes throws us things that we never saw coming. Above everything though, this doesn't change how I feel about you. I need you."
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Katrina was all ready to leave, to leave the rooftop and not look back......... And then he spoke. Not what she planned, and now she was faced with the fact he had opened up to her more than he ever had and she didn't know what to think.

On one hand, she wanted to simply run into his arms and know that everything was going to be alright but on the other hand she was still hesitant. She needed to make things clear and hear from him beforeshe could relax. The againall of this could be because of the pregnancy but who knew anymore.

"I don't want to be a responsibility to you. I want to know that you are going to be there for me. That when things are hard, and I'm huge and awful, I'm not going to find you with someone else." she felt more tears now. She knew as she talked she was sounding ridiculous but she needed to get everything out. She didn;t want to have doubt when it came to Gareth, she knew she needed him as much as he needed her. She knew that this sort ofthing happened, it had happened to people she knew and she didn;t want to be one of those girls, she had sworn she would never be one of them and yet here she was, hoping her boyfriend wouldn;t hurt her like they had been.
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"I didn't mean you were a responsibility to me, darling," he began, folding his arms over his chest. Damn, when did it get so cold out here. His master uniform, though practical, was no match for the January cold. He didn't know what to say, when she asked if he was going to be there for her. Okay, so Gareth wasn't the best at showing his emotions, but really, did she think that she was less important to him now? "I mean, I need you. I want to be there for you. I don't think I could find anyone that could compare to you...or someone as good in bed as you." He said the last part jokingly, trying to lighten the mood just a bit. "Kat, if I didn't believe it were too soon, I might even say I'm falling for you. I like you more than anyone I've ever liked before...and I want to be sure that I really really feel that way about you before I say those three words...but I am, I am falling for you. I am not going to leave you."
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Katrina felt so ridiculous and so happy at the same time, and not to mention she was now beginning to realize how dumb it had been to come out here without a coat.

Everything he said was everything she needed to hear. Alright so she had to basically make him say it but he did say something. She even found herself blushing when he mentioned her in bed. Leave it to him to say something like that.

She now walked over to him though his arms were crossed over his chest, she stood in front of him her arms now crossed her over to keep her warmer.
"Well....I think I'm falling for you too" she said with a smile
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Gareth smiled as Kat's emotions brightened up. He was so happy when she told him that she was falling for him. When she walked over, he reached out and pulled her into his arms, hugging her tightly. "For a second, I was terrified that you were going to leave me." He leaned down and kissed her briefly. "Don't worry, love. We'll take this one day at a time. First, though, you've got to get inside."
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